So as many of you know I am writing and recording music for my project called Whiskey Papa. If not, i’m writing and recording music under the name whiskey papa. The end is 9 songs in about 6 weeks. However, i’m at the point where I feel like I should be putting together a more produced crafted musical experience. The key word there is “should”. I really want to, i even have a TODO chart with song titles and the things that need to be recorded, i have some concept art and even a title. At the moment though I have little will or energy to make the more produced produce. It’s a mix of lack of skill and lack of care.
The lack of skill, like all problems where skill is a problem, is remedied with practice. I just need to sit down and record and rerecord the song till it’s good enough for me. However that comes into the lack of care problem. The lack of care problem is summed up simply “Who am I doing this for?” “Who cares?” It’s feels really petty to have a lack of care. In other words i can consciously say to myself “i’m doing this for me because i care about it.” If it were that simple I would be recording and working on the first produced Whiskey Papa EP right now. However I’m not.
So the question is now do i believe that i am doing this for myself and that i care about this enough to mend the problem of skill? With February being a wash in the production of Whiskey Papa songs and the lack of dedication to get better playing with a click track and creating songs and sounds with in my skill. In other words, my eyes are bigger than my stomache and my ideas are better than reality.
Where does that leave me? That leaves me in the exact same place I was at the beginning of this long blog. I still want to make a well produced and put together ep. Maybe it’s that the amount of work into making the EP is not worth the product out. Like I can make the best possible EP i can make but if no ones listens to it, what’s the point? I know that i’m doing this for myself but making public art isn’t done for the simple joy of creating, I feel it’s also done for the reaction.
Maybe I should just make Whiskey Papa stuff I like making with the amount of work I put in and when it feels that the work in is worth the out come; I’ll make the EP.
So more demos and experimenting and less worrying about making a product.